This is meee

I'm not typical eighteen years old teenage girl everyone thought . I don't online my social accounts via blackberry , never have the chance to use I phone 4 . I don't have the most beautiful default pictures on my social accounts . I love taking pictures even it look ugly I still love it because it's me the truth me . I don't have short skirt , long dress in my wardrobe . I don't wear  killer high heels , does't have a bunch of accessories . I don't like to wear make up . I only use BB cream and some eyeliner when I go out , but it is depends on my mood . 


I don't see my panda everyday . We don't call each other everyday . We just texting each other until we fall asleep . He is the most understand panda ever . I know I'm such a bad girlfriend in the world . Sea witch or Cinderella stepmother can't even beat me . I only text my panda on night , call him when I miss him most , never call him sayang , does't talk much when I'm with him . But he never sigh , he never complain . 


I'm such a shy girl . I'm really shy . When there is stranger around me I will shut my mouth closely . I does't talk much with people that I does't feel comfortable with . Actually I'm heartless girl . When I'm in pain I did't show it , I did't like when people can read my mind , knows what inside my heart seriously I don't like it . It's like you show to people your weakness 

"...to be true to myself, to be the person that was on the inside of me, and not play games. That's what I'm trying to do mostly in the whole world, is to not bullshit myself and not bullshit anybody else." - Janis Joplin